I am April. I am not perfect and I will never pretend to be so. Here are some of my faults and sins in my life:
I don’t always trust God and I am not quick to pray when I should be. * I’m forgetful * Sometimes I can be pretty inattentive * I’m a chronic procrastinator * I’m naive and too trusting * I’m messy – cleaning has never been my strong point * I’m terrible at calling people and keeping in touch. * I’m late for everything. always * I don’t always love the Army life. Sometimes I do, sometimes I despise it. * I have ended friendships that I shouldn’t have and I have protected some unfairly * I have made enemies * I cuss and I like it * I’m quick to give advice and hesitant to take my own * I’m not a great planner, I don’t always think ahead * I do not have a perfect marriage, I have not always been faithful * I can’t cook. * I lie * Some days I don’t want to be married at all anymore * I’m not always a great mom * I isolate myself when I’m struggling. I push people away * I can be selfish * I don’t have as high of a self esteem as people may think * I can be selfless * I am terrible with money * I take anti-depressants * I tend to over-commit to things (and people) * Sometimes I’m a people pleaser to a fault * I don’t enjoy exercise and my weight continues to be a major battle for me * I yell * I have a food addiction * I haven’t found balance in my life. I tend to put my “job” on a higher priority than it should be * I don’t always hear when I’m listening * I lose my temper * I pick fights with my husband * I tend to try to be a friend to more people than I should * I think I’m right way more often than I really am * I worry about what people think about me, even when those people don’t matter to me.
There’s a starter list for you. I could go on for much longer I’m sure, but those are the basics. If there’s something more you want to know about who I am, just ask. All that I ask in return is that you accept me for me – faults and all. If my faults and sins that make up who I am are too overwhelming for you to embrace me as a whole, that’s ok. I strongly suggest that you move on in life and not try to do me a favor by pretending to be a friend. We all have standards and expectations of people in our lives. I am a real, broken, every day, struggling, optimistic human being. That’s all I can promise you. You don’t have to agree with me, you just have to accept me.
I promise to do the same…